~*Candy.Lipgloss.Diamonds.Beckett*~

Walking down East Delhi Boulevard with my two friends Bailey and Desiree' wearing my new silver Jimmy Choos and Chanel shades I feel invincible. Just then as the wind blows my long, straight, chesnut hair my pink Chocolate phone plays Cobra Starship "Good Girls Go Bad" it's my brother texting me.

Brittany asked in her  beautiful british accent, "Who is it Novi?"

"My big bro!" I smile then flip my hair.

"What's up Kev?" I ask playfully.

"Meet me at work and  I'll show you!" he replies in soft, handsome tone.

His comment left me excited.

I start to jog.

"My brothers job is somewhere down here! He has something to show us!"

As I open the door to Gilligans Sports bar I noticed my brother was talking to a 6 foot tall, skinny, short dark haired boy.

"Why is he talking with William Beckett!?!"

I slowly open the door as my friends push me into the building.

They both look at me.

William gracefully comes walking my way.

"Hey, I'm William Beckett and you are?" he greets me with a cute smile.

"Hi, I'm November Oberlin but my friends call me Novi!"

"Nice to meet you Novi! Can I buy you a drink?"

My brother was no where to be found and my friends were giggling to themselves on the other side of the bar.

"I don't drink alcohol, Mr. Beckett!"

"Then I'll order you something virgin!"

"They have smoothies here so I think I'll get one!"

Not even caring if he was paying for my drink or not I was mezmerized by his voice.

As we sat there I refused to let the silence grow between us.

"So how do you know me and my brother?"

"I've been friends with your brother for quite some time! He cleans up after our shows every night!"

"You?, It's quite obvious that you're a fan because without realizing it you have told Sisky on Santis Little Helpers that you would love to meet me...so here I am!"

The whole time he never took his coffee brown eyes off me. As my sapphire blue eyes never left his face.

"Do you work?" he askes politely with a smile.

"I work at the Victorias Secret here on East Delhi!" I say with a tad bit of hesistation.

"Ah, I see!" he lifts his head and eyebrows.

"Maybe, you should stop in sometime?" a long pause followed.

"Pink is definately your color!" I giggle.

He laughs, "I don't think I would look very appealing in a pink thong."

"...or bra..." things just got more and more awkward.

"Why don't you come to dinner with me tonight? I'm staying at the Grand Prix hotel."

"YOU'RE STAYING AT THE GRAND PRIX HOTEL?!?!" my jaw drops in shock.

"Well, you are in a famous rock band so you could probably afford spending a year or two there!"

"Can I move in with you?" I question.

"Sure!" he laughs his gorgous laugh again.

I don't think he realizes that I'm being serious.

We get up and walk out the door, my two best friends squealing amongst themselves and my brother still yelling at the referee of the football game he's watching on the big screen tv. 

Alice and Jasper's BMW stops at the edge of a pitch black forest. The others walk ahead while I stay glued to the ground quivering.

Emmett laughs "What's the matter, scared of the dark much?"

Alice defends me "Emmett, she's never done this before!"

She turns to me, "We won't let anything hurt you."

"That would be the last thing Carlisle would want." Jasper adds.

With Alice's words of encouragment my feet finally become mobile. Emmett waits for me at the trunk of a mountainous tree while the other two move on along into the inky black darkness. I quickly glance to all sides, watching carefully and closely for any sort of movement that wasn't theirs or my own. I hear some leaves rustle to my left. I start to run and then faster without control and I launch myself forward. As I hit the ground on my elbows and knees, cradled in my palms is a young rabbit. I couldn't bite it, it would be wrong.

Emmett looks over my shoulder, "Whatcha got there?"

"I can't do it..." I whimper in tears.

"I might just have to be the only vampire to eat human food."

"Just try..." Alice says kindly.

I fought myself for a moment, but I had lost before the battle even began. I bit it and the warm wetness against my lips seemed to satisfy a hunger I've had for years. The deed was done, and I threw the tiny,limp,lifeless body farther into the woods. Not being able to forget having to take away an innocent little life.

"Hey, can you take me back to my house?" I ask.

"I might as well burn my bed because I won't be sleeping anymore!" I fake a laugh.

"You're quite the comedian, lil' squirt!" Emmett jokes as he places his arm around my neck.

"Why don't you make it a guest room?" Alice suggests.

"Perhaps, if Bella should spend the night." Jasper explains.

We reach my house and everything is undisturbed and the leave me for the night. I spent half an hour thinking about the rabbit and putting myself in it's place. Looking through my fridge nothing sounded good...besides an apple. Surprisingly, it still tasted just as sweet and juicy as it had before. Out of the corner of my eye I thought I saw Alice watching me from in the dining room.

"Alice?" I become alarmed and slightly startled.

"It's alright...Carlisle told me it was my turn to watch over you!"

"Oh, okay!" I smile.

She perches herself on the dark green couch.

Relieved actually, this house has become so lonely.

"Did you have a vision that I would join?"

"Yes, and we all were so excited to meet you even Bella!"

"Rosalie not so much." I raise my eyebrows and look off to my right.

"She has her reasons." Alice grins at my geeky face.

"But don't let her bother you, she is the least of your worries."

"Really?, then what is?!?" I act surprised even though I knew the answer to my own question.

"It will all be explained to you once you have matured!" she leans in towards me with her hands still folded upon her lap.

I get up, "I'm gonna go take a midnight stroll...." "If you want to come your welcome to join."

She nods, "I'll come if you want me to keep you company."

We both smile.

I let her have a gray cashmere jacket and a black pair of gloves I once could wear.

We spent the whole night talking about the Cullen family in all aspects and well, girl stuff like shopping and how she met Jasper and still I stood there on the Northeast Webster-McCenderia bridge staring at the moon on the water of the Sawyer riversipping on the french vanilla mocha I had made.

"Alice?" I ask with my eyes still locked on the bone colored medallions reflection.

"Yes!" she happily skips to my side.

"Do you think they could build me a house? Close to yours!" I wonder.

"I'll talk to Carlisle and I'll keep you posted on his decision." I smile down at her.

She let me stay at her house so I could be there for the answer.

When we got back the Cullen family was enjoying a bonfire...with a water balloon fight going on between Rosalie and Emmett?!!

Edward, Jasper, Esme and Carlisle are enjoying a delightful conversation when Alice and I come stumbling down the hill.

Rosalie drops her water balloon on the ground and quickly grabs her jacket and stomps away. The next thing I knew she was speeding off into the night in her shiny red convertible.

Leaving Emmett and the others speechless and all of us wondering the same thought...."What on earth just happened?!"

Emmett crawls back to where his mother and father are seated and listens in on the conversation. Slouching in his chair I can't help but feel sorry for him.

Alice carefully seats herself next to her statue of a husband with his emotionless face.

Alice whispers in my ear to close my ears and cross my fingers which I do obediently.

The excitement and uneasiness swirls within me ready to fire either one when the que is called.

I notice that Carlisle and Esme are smiling so I'm forced to believe the answer is in my favor.

She taps my shoulder.

"Your house shall be built tomorrow riiight back there!" she points to the woods.

Edward was sitting at the right end of the fire pit and now he's absent!

"He went to go get your car! And hopefully he'll find Rosalie in the process." Esme' sounds slightly annoyed.

                                                          To Be Continued..

Sunday , 6:45 PM (A little before dinner time)

Lying in a hospital bed in Forks Washington seeing nothing but rain can be pretty depressing. Especially, knowing the fact that at any given moment your life could fade away, silently and swiftly. Suddenly, Dr. Cullen quietly walks into my room all I can he is his footsteps and nothing else. He lowers himself into a chair at my left. I hold a couple tissues to my mouth as I cough and upon it a crimson residue appears. I begin to feel a bit light headed.

Behind his mint green filter mask he softly says, "Your condition has worsened, miss Kaleigh."

"I hate to be the one to deliver this news to you but you have a few days to live..." He looks down sorrowfully down at his clipboard.

"From what, sir?" I puzzle deeply hurt and internally frightened.

"It's very complex... but I can save you, you just have to trust me."

"It may hurt but you'll be able to see your loved ones again." "Please Dr. C I don't want to die now I'm twenty-three I have my entire life ahead of me!" I plead. 

"...I don't care what it takes..." I begin to cry.

"Dr. C I don't have any family left!"

"Oh well, you can live with my family...what's one more child?"

"Thank you!" I smile and bounce happily in my bed. 

He stands up and closes the door, then the room goes pitch black except for the lights from the machines that are the only things keeping me out of the hands of certain death. I can see the outline of his tall, lean body in front of the machine that reads my brain waves. He lightly presses his ice cold fingers against my left temple forcing my head to the right.

Then, a pain like a knife sliding through the side of my throat. Slowly pulsing its way through my bloodstream a storm surge of fire  fills my person throughout. I involuntarily let out bloodcurdling scream as a result of the internal agonizing torture then all goes black...

Tuesday 8:15 (After breakfast...supposedly)

I shoot up in my bed sweaty and confused. I look around and I find eight pairs of eyes watching me intently. I then realized it had to be Dr. Cullens family. As I gain normal breathing again I feel relieved that I am no longer cursed by that wretched diease. I've hear stories about the Cullens at school and from Carlisle telling me bed time stories each night when my condition was still medication managable. Esme' touch my forehead softly and lightly guided my head back down to the pillow.

"It's okay honey, it's all over now."

I look at everyone and they seem to  accept my new arrival...well, except for Rosalie.

"Jasper and I will take her on her first hunting trip!"  Alices harmonious voice rings out in the silence.

"I'll make sure she doesn't get into something she can't handle!" Emmett smiles flawlessly.

"Yes, you want to start off catching something small." Jasper raised the corners of his mouth.

Carlisle began to unhook me from the machines as I slowly pulled the electrodes off. Alice seemed to walk rather close to me. And as we went down on the elevator I felt a strong feeling of freedom. I quickly hugged Alice.

"Thank you." I smiled.

"You're welcome, kid!" Emmett grins.

                                                                 XxTo Be ContinuedxX

The last day of school has finally come and I've been waiting for it for quite a while. After completely humiliating myself in front of my best friends, crush and entire English class presenting my end of the year senior project. I'm trying not to focus on the twenty three eyes that staring at me possibly waiting for the end and yet so was I. Even the class clowns didn't do much goofing off which bothered me. complete silence filled the room as I fixed my shifty nervous eyes on the tiny neon clock on the wall in front of me.

The seniors get to leave a few days early so me, my two girl friends Caitie and Ellie are going with my only guy friend on a city exploration. One car, four friends, two weeks at most my mom said and I doubted that we would take no more than five days or a week maximum. Then at just the perfect time Mr. Desmond walks in "Excuse me Mrs. Hernandez, Your brother's here, get your stuff." "She'll be there in a moment, thank you Mr. Desmond!" "Well Annaliese, you did exceptionally well compared to your verbal book report." What was that woman thinking?! I was sick that day thank you!...I couldn't go to my next class let alone five steps without needing a tissue. I grab my books and look at my portfolio disdainfully repeating Mrs. Hernandezs comment. As I begin to walk out the door I gave her a wave and smiled happily "Thanks!"

Walking to the other building underneath the canopy I knew so well. I hear a girl yell my name noisily "ANNIE!!!" here comes Caitie and Ellie running for me and as she passes me Ellie lets out a "George of the Jungle" holler. I hide my eyes with my hand and shake my head disappointingly but not in the least embarrassed. "This is going to be soooo much fun!" "I KNOW!!!! EEEEEKKKKK!!!" Caitie squeaks excitingly, jogging in place. Ellie puzzles "Is your friend coming?" Caitie "What friend?" I look at her like she has grown two heads. "OOOHH!!" "Geez Caitie, took you long enough!" "And yes Eleanor he is coming!" Caitie squeals again this time her hands cover her mouth slightly muffling it. "Why are you two concerned?" "He's a senior and you two dweebs are sophmores!" "Oh well!!" Ellie shrugs as she starts to skip toward the door.

When inside the office my brother has already signed me out. And as we're passing the tall dark haired woman at the desk she points with her pen "Are they with you?" I look out into the main lobby and there are my ridiculous friends do-si-doing. My freakishly tall brother tucks his straight shoulder length blackish-brown hair behind his ear "Yeah!" he gives her a polite grin as his keys ding against the door knob and he holds it open for me. "Gavins going to drive you girls to where you need to go!" "NOOO!!!" Caitie crys out. "Why aren't you coming?" "You forget that I have a job now!" his face turns toward her still managing a blank expression. Oh yeah, where do you work?" Ellie asks. My brother sighs as I'm spaced out at his wide pointed shoulders clothed with black leather "Chaos Tattoos." "Where's that at?" she asks again. "You know wear that mall plaza is and that weird pizza place?" I chimed in. "It's right across the street." my lanky, skinny brother finished. "Ohh!" the girls say in a synchronized manner. I walk a little quicker to catch up with my brother and cling to his side and he looks down at me with a smile and scratches my head. I can smell his Royal Ace cologne which got stronger with the breeze and I seem to shift my focus to his flawless hair blowing in the wind. My brother isn't a bad looking guy but all of his previous girlfriends cruely mistreated him. We get to his car and it's a jet black pick-up truck with red pin stripes and shiny chrome wheels with tan interior.

"I'm gonna take you guys to the other parking lot where Gavin is waiting." I happened to catch his eye from underneath of his black ray-bans with silver frames. His Famous Stars and Straps shirt surely showed that he's a skater, he wears skinny jeans always blue, the pair of Adios I got him for his birthday last year, I love his black flat-billed DC Shoes hat. His eyes are brown when he's in his usual brotherly mood but on the rare occasion he gets upset he isolates himself when he gets mad and often comes to me for comfort but when he cries he doesn't have very many words to say. Out of the corner of my eye I see Caitie and Ellie staring wide eyed at a piece of paper. "What's that?" I peek over Ellies shoulder. She hands it to Caitie and her jaw immediately drops "Uhhhhh!......." she stares in some sort of amazment. Ellie whispers in my ear "It's a note Caitie took from your locker!" "Caitie, can see that?" she giggles hysterically as she hands it to me. The letter written in blue ink read:

Hey Annaliese,

I know we've been friends forever but I want to take it a step further. I can't wait to go on this trip with you, I'll finally get to spend time the the girl I love. And yes, the rumors are true I'm getting a job working with your brother.

love Gavin Loren

I threw my hands up in the air and squeezed Ellie as much as my strength would let me. My brother parked on the right side of Gavins Corvette and we all seem to get out of the cars instantly, following one another. Ellie and Caitlin chase each other to the backseat of the electric blue Corvette. "Cameron, what's going on, brotha!?" Then I get out of the car and Gavins blue eyes turn my way and are locked on me. I stand in front of him "Hi!" I smile waving childishly. He gives me a pure white grin. He opens the passenger door for me "You get shotgun." "See ya later!" he yells at my brother as he ducks into his car. And the last time I looked back I saw my brother waving goodbye sitting on the hood of his truck. And a tear slid down my face, I wipe it away with my arm.

                                                          ~*xoTo Be Continuedxo*~

The more I talked to Shawn the more I appreciated his type and the less I looked at William. One day, he took me with him to the skatepark so he could skateboard and poppin' some mean tricks was a beautiful blondie. Also, being with Shawn it has decreased my courtesy towards others I call out to his smokin' blond male skate partner " Hey, blondie!" He looks over my way and totally misses the top of the ramp and falls backward onto the hot, gritty concrete. He moans in pain and Shawn hurries to his side. The blond yells in pain "AH!!!" I rushed to see if I could offer him anything from my handy dandy first aid kit I kept in the trunk of my car. His elbow was bleeding and his back was road burned. So I ran to my car and brought him the ice pack, gauze pad, Neosporin, Tylenol and a huge band-aid.

Our eyes met and we smiled but in the back of my mind I had kept the thought of how we were just FRIENDS?! Shawns cellphone rung and he went back to my car and he answered the call as he leaned upon it. "What's your name?" I asked staring straight into his pupils. "Kyle, Kyle Burns." he moans as he tries to sit up. He has the most goregous blue eyes that seemed to shimmer in the brilliant sunlight. When he looked at me I felt the butterflies in my stomach start to shed there cocoons and as a result I look away so he wouldn't see me blushing. And suddenly to my surprise he asks "Why don't you come with me? as I catch his glance one more time. Shawn jumps in his car and drives away and the only car left in the entire skatepark parking lot was his glossy, navy blue Pontiac. As we drive we exchange information about ourselves and we both are intrigued by each other and I know that Kyle William Burns is the one for me, I love him uncondtionally. I noticed his eyes would every so often looking at my bored figure in his passenger seat. He took me to the Auckland Mall where in the parking lot he held my hand as we walked and asked me this question "Will you go out with me?" as a reponse I leaned my head on his upper arm and he wraps his arm around my waist then lays his head on mine. We sit down at a bench with a basket of nachos to share and weexchange numbers. As we're walking he tells me "Why don't you go ahead to your favorite store and I'll find ya in a few minutes!" I noticed as I turned around he was talking to the man at the kiosk that sold diamond jewelry and I puzzled until I got to Icing by Claires.

With all the shininess I was sort of mezmerized and confused on what to buy. I ended up with a silver head band with a cubic zirconia heart on it, a pair of long drop earrings, a necklace shaped like a waterdroplet and a silver ring that looked like an engagement ring. I went ahead and walked over to the coffee shop and bought a frozen hot chocolate. Hot Topic was always on my list as a favorite list so I dropped in to look at the Skelanimals stuff and what band tee's they had. Nothing really special but I walked out with a All Time Low wallet and the new Punk Goes Pop CD. The second store and he still wasn't done I'm starting to get lonely. To get his absence from my side off my mind I walk into Claires where I laugh at the sight of the famous Cheez-It lipgloss which seemed a little overboard from the first time I laid eyes on it. But my favorite thing about this store is how they have jewelry that look like desserts which happens to be my overall obsession. I did happen to buy a pair of cupcake and ice cream cone earrings , a lollipop bracelet,  a ring shaped like a pink piece of hard candy, three lipglosses flavored of birthday cake, cotton candy and vanilla finally, Royal Ace perfume that comes convienently in a plastic bottle. He caught me as I was leaving the store and he seemed like he was trying to rush me. To my dismay he takes my wrist and drags me to the nearest bench. He asks me to close my eyes and turn around so I do so and I felt something cold against my neck. He tells me I can open my eyes now and I look down at my neck and there is a delicate, silver chain with a tiny diamond heart on it lying against my heart. I start to tear up and I turn to him and hug his neck, for the first time I've seen a man cry.

Mikayla is finally home and with her being my best friend Devon, Shawn and I have volunteered to take care of her because she's still unable to walk. But my mom being the angel that she is is going to take care of Mikayla tonight while the boys and I are out on the town. The perfect chance to get one of them to spill the beans.

Shawn Michael McAllister is approximately 6'2", short shaggy dark brown almost black hair, slender body and the only muscles you'll see on that boy is his arms from a few previous years of working in his does auto repair center. He has greyish blue eyes, he wears a mens size 10 shoe but prefers man sandals, he surprisingly still wears a large in clothing.

Devon Timothy O' Gaylen is 5'6" or 7", he has goregous reddish brown hair which is about shoulder blade length and straight he usually keeps it in a ponytail or tucked behind his ears when he works something I've noticed he only has it down when I'm around, he is slender also but little muscle can be easily recognized. His kelly green eyes match the trees in midsummer, he wears a 9 1/2 size shoe and wears size large clothing too but he likes his extra large ragged jean jacket way too much.

Anyways, Shawn and I are going to meet up with Devon and one of his new friends and we're going to do whatever strikes our fancies. First, we meet in Roland Park which sits right in front of the Auckland Hotel Suites and Rembrandt Theatrical Company where most of the concerts take place because it holds 50,000+, Warped Tour is always held here. Shawn took me to Warped Tour of '08 and I then found my love for Screamo and Emo-pop.

Shawn and I sit down and wait on Devon, "So what are we going to do on our day off?" he asks in his totally sexy british accent. I think about it "I say we go eat at the new soup and sandwich joint!" "Whatelse?" "Wanna go to Coney Island?" "That's a bit childish, don't cha think?" "Cmon Shawn, embrace your inner child it won't last for long!" He sighs "Sure, why not!" "Hee hee!" I hug him a bit too tightly. Then down the hill comes Devon and his hot new friend. His friends stops to say Hi to Shawn then his cellphone rings just as he reaches out his hand to introduce himself to me so he leans against a tree behind us and answers the call. "Who's he?" I ask Devon. "That's William Beckett, we went to school together with his band mate Adam Siska!" "Wait!, he's in a band?!" "Yup, The Academy Is!" "Dang!" I respond. As I accidently begin to stare at him he winks and puckers his lips at me as if to blow me a kiss. Shawn shoots him the death glare and he rolls his eyes and watches a bicycler pace quickly down the sidewalk.

Lying on my bed staring up at my bubblegum pink ceiling fan blades slowly rotate isn't enough so I buckle my cute high heel Jimmy Choo sandals, my blue, pink and lavender Coach purse and before walking out the door I pickup my limited edition Panic at the Disco Sidekick 3 and I head off to the mall to do a little personal relaxation.

I told my mom that my dream car was a robins egg blue Honda Civic Hybrid and that's what I've got. I always like to keep it and my new house of two months clean even though that doesn't last long after my friends get done with them. My job as a spokesmodel for Charlotte Russe pays off with no one else to take care of but me but still I work a second job as a cashier at the Victorias Secret in the local mall. But my friends swear I should've been a spokesmodel for Hot Topic.The only thing keeping me from doing so is that I wear pink, love my Coach purse and think Uggs are adorable. But I'd die to fall in love with a rocker boy.

The only thing I don't like to brag about is how I get employee discounts on everything and a little extra cash called my freakin' awesome paycheck. My friends tell me that they would absolutely die to be in my shoes but I learned not to judge others but there are some people who push the envelope a tad bit too far. I'm not to hard to please or get along with but of course there are those high maintenance girls who obviously don't have the time to be nice so they shoot you the death glare and sneer when they're the ones who should be thinking twice about what clothes they put on this morning, that's all I'm going to say. Exibit A: Just the other day a girl and her boyfriend walk in VS while I'm filling in for my friend who got injured and as I'm ringing up her things she pops her gum and says to me "Why are you working here? I think JC Penneys or Sears would suit you better!" "That'll be 24.95 and it's really none of your business where I work, Have a nice day ma'am!" I answer and wave as they walk out the door. Sometimes, my only guy friends Shawn McAllister and Devon O'Gaylen stop in and say hello bring me dinner or a frozen coffee or smoothie talk to me take me home or here recently to see my friend Mikayla in the hospital some people say that she got drunk at a party and had an accident but I know that she definately doesn't drink and she told me she slipped fell down her wooden spiral steps going into her basement/entertainment area.

Mikayla let me borrow her really chic pink sparkly CD player and I call Devon and he's still asleep at 11:30 AM to ask him if he can hook it up the stores soundsystem and surprisingly he can. He looks too darn adorable when he's overthinking. See, Devon can fix anything your car, your house or your 600 dollar vase that Captain Clutz a.k.a Shawn dropped while trying to prove to me and my girl friends how much of a macho man he can be. One thing he can't fix very well is a brokenheart but it's another story that I think he's a heartthrob. Shawn however is a total skater babe he works at Hot Topic and didn't decide to tell me until currently. I don't think that Devon would ever suspect that I like him but he doesn't tell me anything and that's just who he is.

The night that my friends and a few relatives helped me move into my new house was the closest I ever got to Devon but the only problem with that was and still is I'm pretty sure that Shawn likes me and he means it in the most sincere manner. He wants love for real not just a summer fling. Devons not the dork he used to be he was one of those guys you swore was going to grow up and take over a popular industry...not my co-worker. Lately, he's been slowly noticing me more and more.  What am I supposed to do?

                                                                         ~* Chapter 2 *~

Well, one good thing that comes out of being independent and twenty-two is that I can buy my own things without parental supervision but it's not like my parents ever had to worry about me or my younger brother Shaant. Except for, when I went alternative rebel child and wore black all the time listening to Linkin Park and System of a Down, but I digress.

As I'm looking  through my i-didn't-know-what-to-buy-so-I-let-my-friends-pick-for-me wardrobe. I found my really tight miniskirt I still have from senior year and powder pink leggings...on second though skrew the leggings I'm going to wear the skirt, my light pink glitter belt, and my favorite pair of pink Uggs, fo sho! Now what shirt am I going to wear!?, Hmmm.... pink spaghetti strap cami with lace on the top and bottom and a white zip-up hoodie with the Boys Like Girls album cover on the front and the Soundtrack of Your Summer Tour logo and tour dates on the back.

 I'll never forget that night rocking out to Metro Station Shake It and my brother and my friends got into a cotton candy fight and then there wasn't any guy there I could romatically dance with so I bribed my brother  into doing so during Boys Like Girls Thunder and my bro let me sit on his shoulders while I was screaming the words of The Great Escape. I spent half of the song doing this and the other half jumping up and down where he mocked me by doing jumping jacks...he's such a goof. When the song first began I like most girls did the jumping up and down, screaming, fanning my face thing which he does NOT copy very well at that. Pffft!...

I grab my purse and stream out the door finding that I'm late. They're always so picky with the time of arrival.

                                                                       ~* Chapter 3 *~

Sitting at the table laughing with Ellie, Caitlyn and Jaymi finishing the last bite of my Mcgriddle watch Ellie as she tries to steal my hashbrowns guess who walks in?! If you're think to yourself good ol' Bilvy Beckett you're correct but he's not alone he brought Neon Body Style a.k.a Sisky and Butcher with him as I watch Michael Guy speed walk in while trying to concentrate on the conversation on the other line of his new hot man phone and no I don't know what it is!

Jaymi says quietly as we four girls are watching the boys stand in line, "Ooh goodie, one for each of us!" Ellie replies comically "I knew I should've gotten that apple pie!" Caitlyn slaps Ellies leg, "ELLIE!" Butcher looks at us and then continues looking at his shoes while listening to William.

We turn back around quickly seventy five percent of our party blushing.  "Great, you blew our cover!" jaymi swats at Caitlyn and Ellie sitting on the opposite side of the table. William asked, "How are you fine ladies doing today?" I look up from my crouched position and he's standing next to me with one hand placed on the edge of the back of my seat and the other one his hip. Caitlyn tries to hide her face and wiggles her fingers to say Hello! without words. Ellie by this point has turned at least three shades of red. And I have gone completely stupid and just like answering "Whipped Cream!" to the teachers question of "Which number is correct when squared by pi?" I answer William with, "You wanna tater thingy?" I wave the hashbrown at him as if it were dancing. "Nah, my breakfast is on Michael but you girls are welcome to chat with us!"

                                                               To Be Continued...

                                                                               Prologue                                                                                                   

All of the expectations of being an independent woman is really getting on my nerves. Just because I live in a house, talk to a couple guy friends and talk with my girls and my mother about a certain male that probably doesn't know that I exist. My friends and family always suspect that I'm with someone or something happened in a previous relationship that is the cause of my single status. But who ever said that a girl can't have fun without a man? Yes, it does get boring and lonely after a while but I'm not about to give up my freedom for some tall, lanky, brown hair, brown eyed boy!

I've been everywhere in the past six months a girl could ever dream of! Interviewing bands in Helsinki, band photography in Germany and partying in Canada and on top of all that taking thirty minutes each night to answer questions, upload pictures and blog about my worldwide trip. Finally, about two-o-six this morning I arrived in my driveway in the pouring rain I was so wore out I almost fell asleep in my robins egg blue Honda Civic Hybrid.

                                                                        ~* Chapter 1 *~

My limited edition Panic At The Disco Sidekick 3 vibrates to a highpitched, wordless tune of Summer Hair = Forever Young. I turn over onto my stomach with my pillows pressed against my face. I quickly chase it across the top of my redoak nightstand and suddenly I don't feel it anymore as I hear a DONK! I roll over to the other side of the bed and pick it up off of the mauve carpet.

I slide it open and recall the number which happens to be the cellphone number of my best friend Caitlyn Riley. "Morning sleeping beauty!" "Sup homegirl?" I ask with a smile. "Wanna come join me and Ellie at Mickey Dees?" she says excitingly. "Sure, whatcha doin' after that?" I puzzle. "Well, we're going to Ellies house then we're going shopping then we're going to a house party, sound like fun?" she waits for an answer happily. "Maybe you can talk to that guy if he's there?" she throws out randomly. 

After she perfectly phrased the last line a golf ball sized lump formed in my throat. I run through a checklist of thoughts of how I might cleverly get out of going to the party but every single one of them is deemed malfunctionable or downright mean. "Yeah, Imma get dressed, see ya at eight thirty!" We hang up.

One half of me is excited to possibly see him at the party the other part is telling my other part "Whoa, hold up a second here!"  

                                                                  To Be Continued...

Sitting on the marble counter swinging my feet occasionally kicking the wooden cabinets below. Gnawing on a cherry popsicle watching TV from within the family room and my brother Xavier Miguel Wilder Kennedy

laughing hysterically at the most ridculous statements which to aren't that funny. But I remind myself he's still immature even at twenty one. I'll be there for him twenty-four/seven but everyday I go on thinking that I don't tell him how much I care often enough so I always tell him whats on my mind. We have an extremely strong bond he'd stick up for his little sis (by one year) and I'd lie my life down for him. I can talk to him about anything and no matter how much he denies it he's a good secret keeper.

Xave turns off the TV and joins me in the kitchen. Grabbing a white styrofoam box from the fridge with his leftover chili-cheese fries inside it.

He hops up on the counter next to me and sighs he pulls a pair of random chopsticks out of the drawer and closes the drawer with his leg.

Xave: So anything you gotta tell me, Alexis?

Me: Nothing, except for my best friend crushing on you!

His eyes got wide as he slowly turned his head toward me.

Xave: What!?

Me: Yeah, she never shuts up about how cute your butt is!

Xave laughs and a piece of fry goes down the wrong pipe.

I smack him on the back and he spits it out into the sink.

Me: Aw, nice one Xave!

I gag.

Xave: Sorry 'bout that! *blech*

Xave: Well, rumor has it that my best friend has a crush on you too!

Me: No way!, is it that William dude?

Xave: Yup!

Me: What am I going to say to him!

I hide my face the armpit of his Zoo York jacket.

Xave: Just act normal and let him do all the work!

Xave: What's you friends name seeming that I'm gonna need to do alot of talking?

Me: Selena Destiny Jenson.

                                                               XoxOTo Be Continued...xOXo

Glitter cherry vanilla lipgloss, my favorite jeans, a pink and blue striped camisole and Shaant watching me from a distance taking a sip of his strawberry lime margarita watching my every move and eavesdropping on every conversation I have! He's turning into my bodyguard more than my best friend who acts more like my boyfriend anyways.

Suddenly, a tall red haired boy locks eyes with me and I can't help but notice his baby blues and his beautiful smile. Shaant walks over,

Shaant: Hey gorgous, wanna dance?

Just as Shaant finishes his sentence the redhead flashes me wink.

Shaant gives him the death glare and the redhead turns away.

I've finally had enough,

Me: Shaant, if you're really my bestfriend you'd let me do what I want to do and stop monitoring me like you're my dad or something, you know?

He looks down at his half filled drink with condensation forming on the glass. Then looks me straight in the eyes.

Me: I appreciate what you did in the mall earlier but this is between me and Martin! DON'T YOU GET IT!?!?

Shaant: You know what?....I'm sorry....I-I'm just gonna leave, see ya soon...

He leaves his drink glass on the counter and walks out the door.

I start to cry realising what I should have done and knowing it's too late.

The redhead turns around and jog off the dance floor to come see me and Martin quits talking to his bandmates and slowly comes over to see whats going on.

Redhead: What just happened?

I turn my head away from him.

I see Martin and that wretched smirk he always flaunts I feel like throwing that freakin' mojito on his cute little expensive tuxedo.

I hand my new virgin pina colada to the redhead.

Marching my way to Martin the smile disappears into a look of internal dread and confusion.

Me: MARTIN THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT!!!

Martin:Uh...

Me: Don't say "Uh"you know darn well what you did!

Martin:Would you care to refresh my memory?

Me: All you had to do was ask!

I punch him in the lower jaw.

His mojito glass hits the floor the broken glass appears just like diamonds to me scattered upon the ground.

Me: Remember anything?

He holds his chin and slowly turns his eyes toward me.

I refuse to hit him again noticing the tears slowy dripping down his face as a result of his broken heart.

Martin: I'm s-sorry...

Martin: THERE I APOLOGIZED NOW WHAT ABOUT YOU?!?

I look at Martin and then around the pin drop silent room.

Me: Martin, please I can't go on pretending to hate you! I've been lying to myself and you. You don't have to believe me but at least listen! I'll do anything you want to make it up to you just please... I still love you....

Martin removes his hand from his face and he looks at me then Bryan Donahue then back at me thinking about his next move.

He reaches out to me as if wanting a hug.

Martin: You're forgiven...

He smiles.

I run into his arms and he twirls me around and kisses my neck unaware that I felt it.

Martin: Wanna dance?

Me: Nah!, I just wanna hang out!

I ask the redhead,

Me: What's your name?

Redhead: Travis Clark!

Me: Come on Travis, let's talk!

Travis: Sweet!

I call Shaant on his cellphone.

Me: Shaant!

Me: I saw you standing outside come back in here and talk with us!

 Shaant: So you and Martinmade up, huh?

Me: Do you mind if it goes a little deeper than that?

Shaant: What?! Pffft, naw-way!

Me: Are you sure?

Shaant: Don't make me come in there!

I give the phone to Martin.

Martin: Whatcha gonna do 'bout it foo'!

Shaant: You're diggin' a deeep hole, man!

Martin playfully goes after Shaant and drags me along as he holds my hand.

Me: Here we go again!

As the door closes Martin yells,

Martin: YOU BETTER RUN!!!

And we all laugh.

                                                               xoxoTo Be Continued...xoxo

Walking around at Northernport Mall gnawing painfully at a golf ball sized watermelon flavored gumball laughing at Shaants strange faces constantly looking up at Brendon Urie. All of the sudden Martin Johnson and his gang walk past giving me dirty looks which I am entirely sick of. Martin is such a jerk I've tried to tell him I was sorry but he keeps blowing me off but the fact of that we were once friends annoys me with it's frequent surprise attack. Let's just say we didn't start off on the right foot with each other but it hurts to know that I might not get the chance to make it up to him before it's too late. 

I lean my head against Brendons arm and begin to cry hoping one of the boys doesn't see me but to my dismay Shaant asks, "Is it about Martin again?" I look at him with the most pitiful look in my eyes and he knows. He tells Brendon to go on ahead and then sits on a bench against the wall next to a black garbage can. He reachs his arms out toward me and I sit down on his lap and he wraps his arms around me, rocks back and forward trying to get me to calm down and whispers in my ear over my shoulder.

"Why don't you go catch up with him and I'll be right behind you?" Shaant says reassuringly.

I watch Martin as he walks towards the door and I finally find the nerve to tell him how I feel.

I stand up and start running toward him. He torques his head and watches me puzzled.

I halt abruptly in front of him almost stepping on his brown pair of leather Macbeths.

"Martin, I have something I need to say to you!"

He starts to turn away but I grab the sleeve of his black t-shirt.

"What the *bleep*?!, Get off me!!!"

I start to cry, "I'm sorry!?!, okay... I can't go on with us hating each other like this!....will you pleeeaase forgive me?"

He looks into my eyes with a look of disgust, "I'll think about it, say why don't you come to Williams costume party tonight? A bunch of guys are gonna be there and you might wanna bring your boyfriend..." He looks back at Shaant who is the least bit pleased and he comes storming toward him. "Just so you don't wind up going home with one of them."

Shaant, "Brendon went to Icing go find him, would you please?"

As I quickly walk away fearing that things are going to get slightly ugly I hear Shaant screaming these words into Martins face while Martins bandmates whisper amoungst themselves on how Martins getting his butt handed to him on a silver platter.

"You cold, heartless *bleep*, YOU KNOW SHE HASN'T SLEPT FOR THREE DAYS BECAUSE OF YOU!?!"

"AND ALL YOU DO IS IGNORE HER WHEN SHE TRIES TO APOLOGIZE, YOUR A PILE OF DOG DIRT SCUM!!!"

"YOU DON'T CARE IF SHE CRIES?!, YOU JUST KICK HER AGAIN AND LEAVE HER FOR DEAD!!!"

Martin quickly runs out the door.

"YOU BETTER RUN YOU SMUG SON OF A *bleep*!!!"

                                                            ~*To Be Continued*~

• Would we be the cutest couple?
• Which band?
• Hot, cute, adorable etc?

Sorry, about the delay in posting a fan fiction hopefully your answers will help me!

Jaymi, Max and I all listened for one of the bands last songs We The Kings last song was Skyway Avenue, All Time Lows last song was Poppin' Champagne and Boys Like Girls last song was Thunder so a little birdie told me from a couple merch booths down.

*I stick my head out and wink at Mr. O'Callaghan and he winks back over top of his stunnin' summertime shades *

It just so happens that Boys Like Girls finished first so I nudged Jaymis arm who was listening to her pink blinged out Ipod Alex Gaskarth bought her for her birthday!

Me: Jaymi, All Time Low's playin' their last song!

Jaymi: WHOO HOO!!!

She climbs up on the chair and jumps over the back.

I yell at Max,

Me: Imma go holla at my boo! Kay bro?

Max: Yeah ya , girl!

I drop the tarp and run to Jaymi holding the hand of her boyfriend Alex Gaskarth and John O' Callaghan watching me as I come his way in my black high heels. He places his sunglasses on his head I'm standing next to him and he says,

John: Oh!, I got something for ya!

He walks over to the bands cooler and pulls out a Java Monster Loca Moca and a Monster M-80.

John: Which one do you want?

Me: Ooh, Mocha!

He throws the can to me, I catch it and pop it open.

He walks over and puts his arm around me and continues talking to Alex.

Me: I love you...

I look up at him.

John: Love you too...

He kisses my head.

I take another sip as he laughs at something Alex said.

Behind the merch booths is a creek surrounded by a strip of forest-like scenery. Over the creek there is an old creaky wooden bridge. And on the other side is a gravel parking lot where a bunch of guys are flinging water balloons.

I slide my hand around Johns waist and I run my hand up and down his hip. He turns himself sideways and answers a question with "Mhm." Alex leaves with Jaymi just as Boys Like Girls start to sing Thunder. Me and John take off running hoping we can get   to their stage before the chorus. In the back of the crowd we slow dance.

Then I saw Sisky with a satchel bag.

Me: HEY SISKAY!!!

Sisky looks our way and jogs over.

Me: What's in the bag Sisky?

Sisky: Water balloons...want one?

Me: Heck yes!

He hands me a hot pink water balloon.

Sisky: Why don't you and John have one?

He hands John a deep purple water balloon.

Sisky: The guys are looking for me so if they ask where you got it just say Butcher gave 'em to ya!

Sisky quickly runs away only to be found and chased by Travis Clark, Gabe Saporta, Katy Perry and Jack the Camera man filming the fussing and fuming. Then Katy throws a 74 mph fast pitch which drills him in a very unpleasant place and all I could hear her say was, "THANKS A LOT SISKY!!!" And she stomps away in her soaking wet dress and running make-up.

John and I decide to go check out the water balloon masacre in the parking lot so he leads me through an unnoticed path to the gravel parking lot. Craig Owens, Matt Eric and Mike from blessthefall, my brother, William Beckett and Ben Jorgensen were having a water balloon fight while All Time Low of course used their brilliance to make a baseball game out of it with four leaves as the plates and a plastic yellow bat and it was Jaymis turn.

                                                             xoTo Be Continued...xo

The early eight in the morning orange-yellow sunlight peeks through the window blinds. I turn my head then roll my body toward William who oddly fell asleep with a smile on his face. He opens his eyes, blinks twice and then stretches. I tickle his stomach and he curls into a fetal position and plops over onto his other side.

William: Don't!

He whines.

I stroke his hot cocoa brown hair and he turns back over facing toward me again. I study his coffee brown irises as his pupil adjust to the light. The phone rings and he picks it up,

William: Hello?

William: Yeah!

William: Alright!

William: Bye!

William: Sorry honey, but they need me at the recording studio but I'll be back soon.

He kisses my cheek and begins getting dressed.

I stand on the front porch in my thermal PJ's, house coat, socks, slippers and a mug of hot cocoa. I waved goodbye as I watched him drive away through the barely snowy street. And I knew that it was going to be a rough two weeks. So to try to keep myself from not thinking about his all too sudden departure I took a trip downtown to the huge four story mall with a couple girl friends from church. I happened to run into my old screamo flame Shane Told from Silverstein and later on Paul Koehler caught up with us so we kidnapped them and made them go into stores I knew they weren't comfortable going into and forced them to give their opinion on every single piece of clothing we tried on Paul was okay with doing so but Shane would periodically look at Paul for help. We went into any possible store we could and even into the guy stores because the boys deserved it so we tried on some of the straight brimmed hats and belt buckles and acted like gangters while the boys were looking around. I happened to come across a white shirt that said in crimson blood spatter "The blood of a king", a white Adio hat with a black and red splatter design and a Famous Stars and Straps belt buckle Shane caught me coming out of the dressing room then Paul looked over his shoulder and smiled.

Shane: You look good in my shirt, girl!

Breanna: You have that shirt?

Shane: Yeah,  but she looks hot!

The girls "ooh" at the sentence that just released itself from behind his lips.

I drag Shane over to a nearby aisle.

Me: Shane, what are you thinking?

Me: We're not together anymore?!

Shane: Ya know what?, I'm sorry!

Shane: Paul, you done?

Paul: Uh, sure!

They leave.

Breanna: You two look soo cute together.

I start to cry because he sounded angry at me and it was my fault they left. I run out of the store sobbing looking for them but they were no where I could see. Kaili caught up to me,

Kaili: Maddie, what's wrong?

Me: It was my fault they left!

Kaili: Come 'ere girl.

Kaili opens her arms and wraps them around me and I cry on her shoulder. But the real reason I kept hidden was that I missed William.

We finally met the boys again at Smoothie King.

Me: Shane, can I talk to you privately for a second?

Shane gets up out of his seat and I follow him behind a column.

Me: Shane, I'm soo sorry!

Me: I love you... but not like that, you know?

I start to cry again.

Me: I didn't mean to make you leave.

Shane hushes me.

I hug him and I notice he sways slightly from side to side.

He rubs the back of my head and kisses my neck.

The girls are anxious to see what's going on then we come out from behind the column holding hands.

As we're proceed on our journey to the second floor I can't ignore the emptiness and unsatisfied longing that only William was ever known to fill. William made me happy and excited to see the dawn of the next day. There is a false sense of love I feel for Shane, but as the week passed that feeling soured and I became more and more depressed. Wednesday night, Shane caught me beating and screaming at myself with Three Days Grace "Home" blaring.

Then, Monday afternoon I ran away and hid in my car and after two days and having the whole band of Silverstein searching for me the cops found me Wednesday night whimpering, cold, tired, bruised, weak and completely heart broken.

Shane: Hello is William there?

Mike: Yeah, hold on.

He yells for William over The Butchers drums.

William: Hello?

Shane: Hey, it's Shane from Silverstein I'm Maddies friend.

William: Hey Shane, she alright?

He says with a smile but the smile disappears as there is silence on Shanes end of the phone.

Shane: It's an emergency...

Shane: She's locked herself in her room and she hasn't eaten all day!

William: Oh s***!

William: Be there as fast as I can.

He hangs up.

Shane paces around in the kitchen for 3 minutes...5 minutes...8 minutes...11 minutes... 23 minutes has passed and finally William and the guys including Jack and Tony immeadiately run up the stairs without meeting with Shane.

William knocks on the door with his knuckles,

William: Maddie, please open the door!

I stop screaming and I recognize the voice so I slowly open the door and  fall on my knees in front of him crying and carrying on hysterically.

Me: I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I can't take it anymore!

He kneels down and runs his hand across the back of my pounding skull. I look up through the tears and my black eye to see William smiling at me face to face.

He touches my bruised cheek and kisses my forehead and he starts tearing up.

William: Why baby? Why did you do this to yourself?

Me: I did this... I swallow through the lump in my throat.

Me: I did this because I missed you and I couldn't stand you not being here.

William hushes me.

He leans his forehead on the top of my head and I can hear him cry.

Me: I love you...

William: Nothing can ever replace you and now I know...that the things you hold closest to you could be gone before you notice it.

I smile,

Me: I always need to tell you what's on my mind and not keep anything secret anymore.

William: Really? What are you thinking right now!

He smiles and looks me.

Me: You make every day of my life beautiful and you're the colors when my life is black and white!

He kisses me.

Everyone starts applauding.

The Butcher: Great!, he saved a damsel in distress now who's hungry?

Sisky: Maybe Taco Bell?

The Butcher: Let's go!!!

Sisky and Butcher run down the steps and race eachother to the cars.

Sisky: WHOO-HOO!!!

Everyone else laughs.

William: I wanna drive your car!

Everyone else leaves and Jack can't find someone to ride with.

Jack: Can I ride with you guys?

William looks at me.

Me: Sure!

Once all three of us have climbed in my medium blue Honda Civic Hybrid William puts on his sunglasses.

Me: You like Neo from Tomb Raider!

Jack laughs at my idiotic comment.

William looks at me and pulls his glasses down on top of the bridge of his nose.

William: What!?

William: Try The Matrix, honey.

He pushes his glasses back up and returns his focus on the road.

Me: OH!

                                                                          xTHE ENDx

Jaymi: Maddie, you ready?

I fix my hair because it's already starting to not cooperate.

Jaymi: C'mon, Caleb and your brother (my agent) are out here trying not to make a fool out themselves!

As soon as I walk out of the tour bus and run to catch up with Jaymi.

Weaving our way through the crowd of people with the boom of the bass through the stage amps of Hey Monday and The Maine echoing throughout the once peaceful pavilion.

We're almost to our Krush'd Industries stand where my brother is shaking hands of fans and Caleb is on his way to visit the Forever The Sickest Kids merch stand.

I get to the stand and Jaymi and I enter by raising the tarp at the back of the stand.

Max: Where were you?

Me: Max, my hair wouldn't work with me!

He rolls his eyes and shakes his head.

Me: Max, you're not a girl!

Max: I put gel in my hair and it doesn't take me half as long as you do!

Me: That's because you have shorter hair!

I run my fingers through the back of his hair and it sticks out so I pat it back down.

He pulls away.

Max: Would you stop it!

Max: I bought you one of those lemon ice thingies...

I look behind me at the table and of course it's sitting there sweating so I pick it up and wipe the cool water on my brothers forehead and he lets out a relieving sigh.

Jaymi laughs almost spewing hers on me.

A girl, her boyfriend and her girl friend walks up to my booth.

Girl: Hey, are you Madelyn?

Me: Yeah, wanna t-shirt?

She shrieks and my brother hides his laughter by running behind some shirts and those thick white bracelets with black lettering hanging up by clothes pins on a string.

Her friend asks,

Girls friend: Is that guy Max Green?

Me: Uhhh...yeah he's my agent...

Her Boyfriend: No waaay!!!

Her Boyfriend: Hey Max, can I get your autograph?...No offense, ladies.

As Max walks over to him Max says,

Max: It's always Mr. Green around my sis!

He points to me.

Her Boyfriend: HE'S YOUR BROTHER?!?!

Girl: No wonder you two looked sorta alike.

Her Friend: Is he older or younger than you?

Me: Older...

Her Boyfriend: Sweet, I wish my brother was as cool as Max!

Girls Friend: How much is the lace up jacket?

Jaymi walks over and begins to take a black lace up jacket when she asks,

Jaymi: You want this one or we've got it in brown?

Girls Friend: The black one.

Jaymi: $20.00!

Girls Friend: That's all!?

Max: That's my favorite.

I look at him and smile, he smiles back and places his medium length straight jet black hair behind his right ear.

He signs her receipt and I turn the jacket around in gold print there's a "K" and underneath it says "Krush'd Industries"

She paid Max and he gave her 15% and 20% off coupons.

.I gave the jacket to her and she put it on and stuffed the receipt and coupons in her Krush'd Industries purse.

I never recognized that her purse and the girls boyfriends shoes were from Krush'd too.

As they start walking away to the right I yell to them,

Me: Where'd you guys come from?

Girl: Southern California.

They stop walking.

Me: Do you have someone that lives in Hollywood?

Her Friend: My aunt does!

Me: So you get your Krush'd Industries stuff from her?

They start walking again.

Girl: Yeah, her aunt mails us your stuff!

Girls Friend: Bye!

Caleb walks past them and jumps over the bar where our drinks and samples of our smaller merchandise are sitting all with a Coke in his hand.

I listen to the sound of his keys as he lands.

Then a woman and her less than enthusied husband come walking past when she excitingly says to her husband,

Woman: That's Madelyn Grace Radke she's the daughter of that one guy in that band who just went to jail.

Her Husband: Honey, she can hear you!

Woman: I HAVE to get a picture with you!

Her husband takes three pictures.

Jaymi: Where do you guys live?

Woman: Oh, we live in Hoffman Estates Illinois!

Jaymi: So you go to my Krush'd Industries store!

Woman: My teenage daughter is really into Krush'd! Krush'd This, Krush'd That! Everything in her room is Krush'd and I'm not the kind of person to joke around!

Woman: When Rob was making her dresser she told him she wanted a "K" carved in the center of every drawer.

Woman: Can I buy that purple shirt hanging up on the left?

Caleb takes the shirt down and hands it to the woman.

The woman pays $20.00 when the sticker on the shirt cleary says $15.00.

I give her the extra money.

She pushes my hand back.

Woman: Oh no, you can keep it, dear!

Woman: Bye, hun!

She walks away.

Suddenly, Kent Garrison comes in and pops a water balloon on Calebs head.

Max: Hey, not around the merchandise!!!

He gives Kent the death glare and Kent slightly lowers his head.

Then, Kent jumps over a metal chair and out the back of the tent with Caleb in hot pursuit.

While, I, Jaymi and Max still had work to do until the que the Warped Tour Organizer person had given us which was All Time Low, We The Kings and Boys Like Girls (at a farther stage) last song!

                                                             xoTo Be Continued...xo

The next morning the yellow orange sunrise illuminated a girls wort nightmare, well at least in my situtation. I found a note on the pillow next to me reading:

Dear Jazz,

      I'm taking a drive to help gather my thoughts so don't worry. I'm sorry about this and I can't get you off my mind but don't try to call me because my cellphone's turned off. Please don't think it has anything to do with you because it's my fault. Thanks for all the things you've done and I'm sorry I have to put you through this.

Sincerely, Brendon

At first I didn't know what to think, then I burrowed my face in his pillow and released all my frustration, disappointment and emotional agony with depression induced tears. I walked around my house all day feeling useless and in an angered sense thinking that I could've prevented this...

Sitting on the couch in my pajamas trying to force myself to go eat something but nothing seemed good enough. I finally dressed myself in my black Linkin Park hoodie, old blue jeans, combat boots and my ever so slightly dark jewelry. I decided to take the next step and go to the mall or at least outside my house.

3:00 PM I tried calling Brendon on his house phone with no answer.

I went to an old Italian resturant called Resturante el Bourbon and as I'm waiting for my food I call William because I read an email earlier that he had come home. He is the most sensitive, compassionate person that I know avalible so I seek his comforting words.

William: Hello?

Me: Hey, it's Jazz I just needed someone to talk to cuz' I'm really freakin' depressed right now.

*he sighs as he change positions in his tan recliner*

William: What's the matter, hun.

I start to cry again.

Me: You wouldn't understand...

I sniffle and hold my forehead.

William: C'mon sweetheart, you can talk to me about anything.

Me: Brendon left this morning...

William: NO!?!

Me: He left a note on the pillow sayin' he needed some time to think.

William: I know him and he won't stay gone for long especially with the way he feels about you because he knows in the back of his mind the relationship he has with you is real.

Me: Thanks a lot William!

I smile faintly with some of the pressure relieved.

William: Your welcome... and hey, if you ever need someone to talk to I'm not going anywhere soon and Madelyns always here, okay?

Me: Alright, I gotta go!

William: See ya, hun!

He smiles.

Me: Bye!

I close my phone and put it back in my purse.

Just then, speak of the devil Brendon comes walking through the door.

Me: BRENDON!!!

Brendon looks around and turns his head in my direction.

Brendon: JAZZ!!!

He starts to cry as he runs over to my table.

I stand up and I hug him.

Brendon: I'm so sorry...

Me: It's okay...

I shush him.

Brendon: I wasn't think of how much I might've put you through leaving like I did this morning.

I smile.

Me: It doesn't matter...as long as I'm in your arms again.

He squeezes me and then kisses my neck.

Brendon: I love you...

I smile like a child at Christmas.

Brendon sits down with me and we get deeply involved in a hilarious conversation about pranks and funny things that other bands that he befriends have done.

Brendon: Wanna go ice skating?

Me: Brendon, I don't have any skates!

Brendon: You do now...

He pulls out a pair of sparkly pink ice skates with the autographs of The Academy Is..., We The Kings and some random others including Butch Walker and the TAI managment crew.

                                                                        TO BE CONTINUED...

William talked to the band and they seem to be okay with it but every time I hang out with him there seems to be an intense uneasiness except for when I'm around Ben Jorgensen, Fall Out Boy,  We The Kings and the TAI managment crew. He also is in the process of communicating with my parents to make sure they understand he really loves me and means no harm.

I'm laying on the couch reading The Diary of Anne Frank when I decide to call my dad and see what he thinks of William.

Me: Hey Dad!

Dad: Hi Sweetie!

Me: Have you talked to William lately?

Dad: Yes, he called just last night.

Me: What'd you guys talk about?

My dad is silent for a while then he says,

Dad: He wants to move in with you...he said he'd be at your house around midnight.

I turn around and try to make out the numbers on the clock on the microwave.

It's only 8:00.

So I hang up the phone and jump around in excitment.

I went up stairs and talked to my online friends then when that got boring I made a batch of cookies. It's 10:45 now and I'm eating peppermint icecream in my PJs watchin Cartoon Network on demand.

I put the ice cream away and I unexpectingly doze off on the couch.

I hear the front door slam.

William: MADDIE!!!

I say groggily stumbling through the kitchen,

Me: What?!...I realize who it is and I race around the corner.

Me: WILLY BOO!!!

I see his jacket is wet so I hang it on the door handle above the air register.

I hug him as I scratch the back of his head.

Me: I love you.

He smiles.

William: I've got a question for you.

Me: Really?

William: Yep!

Me: What?

William: Will you date me?

Me: YAY!!!

He imitates my excited jumping routine.

1:00 AM, I'm laying on the couch with him as I read he flips the pages and strokes my short brown hair.

1:36 AM, We're watching cartoons together.

2:00 AM, We're laying in bed and he asks me personal questions and I ask him things that I would like to know.

William: Your mom says you have a job?

Me: Yeah, I have my own clothing line that sells clothing, jewelry and candy!

Williams eyes got big,

William: What!

I give him a big cheesy grin.

Me: Yep.

William: Where?

Me: Well, I've got one in this mall, my friend Jaymi works the one in Hoffman Estates, Illinois and Caleb Turman from that band Forever The Sickest Kids also one of my childhood friends works the one in Hollywood!

William: Holy S%#$!!!

he pops up.

William: Now you tell me you have one in Hoffman Estates!

He lays back down.

William: What's it called?

Me: Krush'd Industries!

Me: My whole closet is full of my stuff.

He curiously gets up and looks through my walk-in closet.

William: Whoa!

William: A black ring pop!

Me: Taste it!

He licks it.

William: Can I have this?

Me: Sure, babe.

I had fallen asleep on his chest while he was watching Thursday night sitcoms.

And the next I planned to show him my workplace.

                                                       xoxoTO BE CONTINUED...xoxo

I follow William and he leads me down the stairs to the musty basement of the venue.

William: I'm so freakin' frazzled right now I've never felt like this about a fan before! I'm gonna lose my job!

Me: William it's okay!

He stops then turns around.

William: Look, if the guys find me WITH a fan I am almost certainly am going to lose my job and reputation forever!

Me: What's going on?

he sighs.

William: I was up on the stage looking into your eyes and I let my foolish male hormones take control of me!

He gets himself so worked up he starts to cry.

I hesitate then hug him.

He looked in my eyes once more and I was focused on him and I felt the connection.

William: What's your name?

Me: Madelyn Grace.

He pushes my hair behind my ear.

William: I love that name.

William: Can I call you Maddie?

He pecks my lips.

Me: Sure, cutie!

William: What are you doin' tonight baby?

Me: Meeting my mom and grandma at Red Lobster. Do you like seafood?

William: Heck yeah!

We go back up the stairs holding hands.

The guys ooo and awww as I come up the stairs behind him.

William attempts to pull off an alibi but Sisky brings him up short.

William: She's just a groupie and she doesn't have a ride!

Sisky: Then what's with the hand holding thing.

He whispers "She's the one..."

Sisky smiles as if they understand each other.

I allow William to drive my medium blue Honda Civic Hybrid Annaleise retrieved from the mall.

William: Wow, this is a nice car!

I laugh.

Me: You should see what it looks like after my friends get ahold of it!

I direct him to the Red Lobster and although no relationship status has been made we both know deep inside we are soul mates.

We walk in the door.

Grammy: Who's she got with her?

Mom: I have no idea but he doesn't look like any scum off the streets!

My grandma introduces herself.

Grammy: I'm Madelyns grandmother Elizabeth who might you be?

William shakes her hand.

William: Hi, I'm William Beckett I went to school with Maddie.

William: And you must be her mother!

Mom: You are correct, sir!

My grandma lets William sit by her and I sit next to my mom.

I'm excused from the table to go call the girls about my life changing experience.

Me: Crissy, guess what?

Crissy: Wha?

Me: I'm having dinner with him.

She squeals so loud I'm pretty sure the people outside the door heard her.

Crissy: Is he going home with you?

Me: It'd be cool if he did but how would he get his stuff to my house?

Crissy: I'm sure one of his friends would bring his stuff down to your house or if worst comes to worst we'll go up and get it!

I hang up and go back to the table and he's gone.

Grammy: He went to the restroom why don't you sit down and think about what you want to order.

My mom looks at me with a smile on her face.

Mom: You think he's the one?

Me: Yes, mom I do!

Has he popped the question yet?

Me: No, but I'll be ready when he does.

She starts to cry.

Mom: Well, your an independent woman now and I'm sure your father will love him.

Me: He is really great guy!

Mom: Has he talked to you about living together?

Right then the waitress comes with our drinks.

William sits back down and holds my hand underneath the table and smiles.

Me: Will you come live with me?

William: What do your parents think and I have to talk to the guys about it.

                                                           xoxoTO BE CONTINUED...xoxo

The smell of my coconut milk and orchid infused shampoo with added conditioner is always a soothing start to my day then the phone rings. I quickly slide open the glass shower door, step out onto a mat, grab my towel, carefully wrapping it around myself and jog down the hall to answer the phone.

Me: Hello?

Carissa: Hey Maddie, wanna come to a TAI show tonight? They're coming alone!

Me: I dunno Crissy...I told mom I would meet her and grandma at the resturant at 6:00 PM.

Carissa: Well okay, but just in case you change your mind Sady borrowed one of her dads limos to pick you up!

Me: I'll talk to mom!

Carissa: Thanks bye!

she hangs up.

I hang up the phone and pick up my tabby kitten Austin Skylor.

I pick out several outfits that I've worn before but none of them peak my interest. But I stop and think about mix and matching them... My faded blue boot cuts, blue pumps, my light blue shirt that says "Livin' Large With No Charge" and my huge Gucci purse. I love my new sparkly coconut lipgloss and silver accessories my mom gave me for my birthday.

I call mom to try to explain to her that I'm an obsessive TAI fan and I want to go.

Me: Hey dad, is mom there?

Dad: Hold on a second sweetie.

I wait a few seconds.

Mom: Hey honey, what's on your mind?

Me: Hey mom, I was wondering if I could go with the girls to go see The Academy Is tonight!

Mom: Sure baby, go right ahead I'll just reschedule the dinner to next weekend!

Me: Thanks mom, I love you tons!

she laughs.

Mom: Alright sweetie, see you later!

I decided to go walk around the mall for the next 3 and a half hours.

My friends found me looking around in Icing by Claires and almost literally drug me out of the store.

Me: How'd you find me Sady?

Sady: Maddie, your a girl it's not to hard to figure out!

In the limo the girls brought wine coolers and I drank a Dr. Pepper or what I call Dr. Sundown.

At the show, the music is as loud as standing right next to a airplane taking off...because Crissy got us front row seats right up next to the stage.

While singing We've Got A Big Mess On Our Hands William reached down and held my hand and secretly winked at me, the girls freaked.

Crissy got to sing however and Sady caught Adams guitar pick.

After the show, I got the guys to sign my Fast Times At Barrington High CD cover except for William who came out of a door to the left and signaled me to come with him into the VIP lounge area.

                                                      xoxoTO BE CONTINUED...xoxo